Now I don't know if its PMS hitting me right now, the fact I went back to school today or I'm just generally feeling low at the moment.. but NOTHING seems to make me wanna smile today. :/
Aside from my constant boy issues and friend troubles ( as there was no added extra conflusion or drama to this mix today - thank god!) there is nothing remotely in my life that would be making me feel this low. Life is sucking.
I've just had the longest Easter holiday ever in my life where I actually did some pretty fun things, hung out and met new people and chilled myself out which I totally needed. Britain also gets a day off this Friday for the Royal Wedding - which I'm going to be brutally honest - was at first just a good excuse for an extra day for me to hide from school and do nothing at all. But the more its advertised and talked about on TV the more I'm beginning to appreciate the wonder that will soon be our future King and Queen (although I'd much rather marry Harry myself, and I think he'd make an excellent King). Sadly I'm going to admit, I am quite happily looking forward to spending the day watching the delights on TV and - better still - telling my children and grandchildren what the wedding was like when they grow up under their reign. I've never been a royalist, but listening to the TV today, hearing a newsreporter actually define it as a fairytale made me wonder at the fact that it is just that. The first (probably - dont hold me against it) British Fairytale. No one else that I have heard of or known has grown up as a normal middle class girl and met her Prince Charming (excuse the pun) and got to marry him. If Kate ( or Catherine) gets to become one of the most famous and important people in the country then surely we all have hopes of finding someone half decent and normal in our little lives? I'm beginning to think we have a really good role model compared to the celebrities in the tabloids - not that I dont enjoy reading about their lives and follow their trends myself. I'm just saying, I'm beginning to appreciate the whole wedding shindig and am actually beginning to fall in love with the girl myself.. and actually falling in love with Prince William too.
Tuesday, 26 April 2011
Monday, 25 April 2011
Are all guys the same?
I'm 16 years old and throughout the years I have come across many guys. Boys and Men. Not just teenagers but the males in the world of all shapes and ages. And so is it sad to say that I'm beginning to think they're all the same?
Last year and the year before that I had Charlie, The guy before that was Ryan and the one before that was Josh. I thought that perhaps it was how I picked them. Or the fact that guys in school period were just the same. Influenced by peer pressure and the general rubbish that comes with being a teenager. But then I went on holiday last summer with my friend. The first proper holiday abroad with no particularly over responisble parents on the scene. So we met older guys. And I began to think that perhaps not everyone of them was the same. Until, they all began to morph into the silly little boys you find at school - these were supposedly fully grown men... well, young men. The older I get and the more males I meet I really am beginning to get worried.
Like, seriously, what is it with the hot and cold game? Standing there flirting outrageously with you the whole time you're together, and then suddenly going cold and distant the next time you see them? Or, those texts you get where there's kisses on the end eventhough you didnt put any in the first place, but when you're with them and other people as well, you're lucky to even be acknowledged.
A random post I know, but the males in my life right now are confusing me. I have the ex who keeps appearing in my life and however much I try and block him out I find my thoughts randomly going back to him in the most random of thoughts and linked to even crazier feelings. I've met a few new guys since everything with Charlie ended, and yes, honestly to begin with I thought that perhaps things could happen there, but the more I hang out with them the more I begin to see its exactly what I left before just in a larger form.
One guy, I clicked instantly with. I dont see him all too often but when we do see eachother things make sense. He is a gentleman doing the manly things and barely making me lift a finger- which is so nice. But then he stands there talking about other girls trying to provoke a reaction from me. He's also moving on soon enough. He confuses the hell out of me which makes me want him even more, but I'm holding myself back. Deep down I know it would never work. We're both going our different ways and I will miss him like crazy - I first met him a few years ago, when things with Charlie were all good - and I remember thinking 'OMG, I wanna get to know him..he seems so cool' and then like a few years later here I am. But things change, people make plans.
Recently I met another guy. He's more my age and does seem a little different to all the other guys I generally go for. He's a friend of a friend, and I can't stop thinking about him, wondering if we met up again (which we have plans to) something would work out. As far as I know, he has no random past like the previous guys or no long term plans for the future which I cant see myself fitting into. When we first hung out earlier in the week he was really shy, then he came out of his cage for like 10 mins bantering back at me and my friend then hid in his shell again. I am so not appreciating the hot and cold thing from Guys. Seriously- Pull yourself together!
Last year and the year before that I had Charlie, The guy before that was Ryan and the one before that was Josh. I thought that perhaps it was how I picked them. Or the fact that guys in school period were just the same. Influenced by peer pressure and the general rubbish that comes with being a teenager. But then I went on holiday last summer with my friend. The first proper holiday abroad with no particularly over responisble parents on the scene. So we met older guys. And I began to think that perhaps not everyone of them was the same. Until, they all began to morph into the silly little boys you find at school - these were supposedly fully grown men... well, young men. The older I get and the more males I meet I really am beginning to get worried.
Like, seriously, what is it with the hot and cold game? Standing there flirting outrageously with you the whole time you're together, and then suddenly going cold and distant the next time you see them? Or, those texts you get where there's kisses on the end eventhough you didnt put any in the first place, but when you're with them and other people as well, you're lucky to even be acknowledged.
A random post I know, but the males in my life right now are confusing me. I have the ex who keeps appearing in my life and however much I try and block him out I find my thoughts randomly going back to him in the most random of thoughts and linked to even crazier feelings. I've met a few new guys since everything with Charlie ended, and yes, honestly to begin with I thought that perhaps things could happen there, but the more I hang out with them the more I begin to see its exactly what I left before just in a larger form.
One guy, I clicked instantly with. I dont see him all too often but when we do see eachother things make sense. He is a gentleman doing the manly things and barely making me lift a finger- which is so nice. But then he stands there talking about other girls trying to provoke a reaction from me. He's also moving on soon enough. He confuses the hell out of me which makes me want him even more, but I'm holding myself back. Deep down I know it would never work. We're both going our different ways and I will miss him like crazy - I first met him a few years ago, when things with Charlie were all good - and I remember thinking 'OMG, I wanna get to know him..he seems so cool' and then like a few years later here I am. But things change, people make plans.
Recently I met another guy. He's more my age and does seem a little different to all the other guys I generally go for. He's a friend of a friend, and I can't stop thinking about him, wondering if we met up again (which we have plans to) something would work out. As far as I know, he has no random past like the previous guys or no long term plans for the future which I cant see myself fitting into. When we first hung out earlier in the week he was really shy, then he came out of his cage for like 10 mins bantering back at me and my friend then hid in his shell again. I am so not appreciating the hot and cold thing from Guys. Seriously- Pull yourself together!
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