a cold heart, on a cold night.

i gave up my friendship with my mates for the boy i love.
dont get me wrong - i still see them. just not as much.
but they're girls. its all drama. and im passed that. we're leaving school in the summer its time to grow up. 


but now im scared. i'm loosing them. and i never thought that this would scare me as much as i do. but i cant loose him; and i cant loose them. but there is no inbetween. its impossible. he hates her, she hates him. its a mess. 


if i see them, im loosing him. 
if i see him im loosing them. 


but today, it felt like i was loosing them both. 
is it worth loosing my friends who ive known for years. to this boy, who hurt me before, and isnt even my boyfriend? ;/ 
i just dont know anymore, whats the best.


xB'.