have no regrets, at one point its what you wanted.

Have you ever wondered why you're friends with some of the people you are?
Have you ever wished, wished so hard, that you had made different friendship choices over the years?
I never had, until this past week.


I've always told myself, you should never regret anything because at some point in time, you made that choice for a reason- because you wanted it. I love my friends to pieces. I do. And most days, I wouldn't change them for the world. And I get that we all have problems within our lives, but as a friend, you should listen and be listened to in return. Right now, that's just not happening for me. With mocks, real exams, boy trouble, college applications and everyone else's problems its just getting too much; yet everyone seems to forget that I am a person too.


I don't mind listening to them and giving them advice, I mean, I don't see them as much any more as I used to. I hang out at different places, and speak to them less. But I still love them. They know that I do. Lately, I've just felt that perhaps they forget about me - until they need someone to tell their problems to.

I really need their help as well. I'm in a sticky situation. I am sorta kinda, with this guy. We had a 'thing' a 2 years ago, and this summer, started again. But I'm no better off than I was then - when he was flicking between me and his GIRLFRIEND. This time there is no girlfriend so there is no excuses...right?
I just dont know what to do. I just want someone to listen to, and so dear blogger.com it shall have to be you. Even if I have no followers, I shall write as often as I can- even if its just to protect my sanity. And document what goes on, so that when I look back, I know that at that one moment in time, everything right now, was because I wanted it. 


xB'.