Promises (L)

Not that anyone reads this.. but no updates in a few days :(. 


I'm just someone silly in love;but sometimes the pain and the heartache from it can actually be worth it. I've sort of been 'with' this guy for about 2 years now. But previously I was kinda sharing him with his on/off girlfriend who coincidentally used to be one of my bestest ever friends. 


Last October, I ended things. I said I couldn't be the one who wasn't his number 1 etc. but like true love happens, I couldn't stop myself completely from talking to him.  By Christmas we were sending flirty texts and being 'us' again. By the summer, we were more than we ever were before, talking and chatting, and I began to live for him again, but apart of me used to think that as soon as we went back to school, his ex would be back in the picture again, and I would be the one he came to when he wanted to fool around. 


3 months later? Yesterday he said the sweetest thing to me ever. Charlie has huge issues with promises, and he wont make them unless he can keep them. And for this I love him. He told me that he would promise me he would tell me when he talks to the ex...and he did. To some, this may not sound like something important, but for me, the other girl, its one giant leap into the unknown. A step in the direction that one day, we will be what I hope they will be. 


Truth is, I cant picture my life without him. I need him in my life. This is no longer a silly teenage romance. I dont want anything between us to change. 


xo.B